Over the next few weeks my wife starts IVF treatment so she can pop out some babies. Hopefully not too many of them. One will be good. Eventually two. I expect my life to change significantly.
It’ll be like the latest chapter of Alan’s Journey. And now that I think about it, I guess Chapter 1 was growing up and being all angry and resentful. Chapter 2 was working out who I was and what I wanted in life. That took a long time. Chapter 3 was working out how to achieve some element of success with my career. And Chapter 4 is becoming a dad at the age of 50.
None of my life stages have been easy. But they’ve been character building, that’s for sure. There’s more to come.
I was thinking the other day about starting a new blog, focused entirely on being a father. But after working through that line of thinking, I decided it would just be better to keep it all here, on this blog. Maybe I could do a graphic header that provides some explanation…
CHAPTER 4: Becoming a father at 50
Or something like that… Do you think that would work?
I’m afraid. Of being a father at that age. Of being unable to do what father’s in their 20s and 30s do. Of being unable to look after my wife, and look after our kids because of my disability.
There’s a lot for me to be afraid of.
But ultimately, they’re all just new challenges. I’ll learn how to overcome them, and how to adapt to them. And our kids will have to adapt to me too.
I won’t be able to lift them. But I could lift weights and work on that. I won’t be able to run with them. I won’t be able to play sports with them. But I could help them draw, read and write, and take photos.
They could become ‘Little Me’. If they want to be.
What an adventure.
Chapter 4 of my life begins now. As we walk down the IVF path I’ll write about that. As we walk down the pregnancy path I’ll write about that too. And on into being a father.
I was wondering recently what I should write about. Silly me for struggling, thinking I had nothing to write about. I’ll write about life, of course. My journey, my growth, my learning. My children.
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