Learning new lessons
My involvement with Zhenzhen has come to a close. By the time I was ready to get into a relationship with her, she had already moved on. She had her misgivings about it after all the time of messing around, … Read more …
Growth
Some thoughts
What an interesting couple of days it's been in here, in this journal. I announce a realisation of my personal preferences, and suddenly, I'm made to feel as if I have no right to have those preferences. I didn't want … Read more …
Transitions
'm going through a transition right now, that I'm finding quite fascinating. I realised it a few days ago. The transition is that I'm joining a growing number of white guys who are more interested in asian women than white … Read more …
Japanese customs
I've got a date tomorrow with a Japanese woman I've been chatting to online. As a result of looking forward to it, I've been looking up 'Japanese customs' on the internet. I'm surprised I never did this with Wakana, but … Read more …
Love, respect and rewards
I have a friend at work who's getting married early next year. The only thing is, he's not in love with her. So why's he doing it? Because he finds it comfortable. They don't argue too much, they get along … Read more …
To all the girls I’ve loved before
In continuing the dating theme – and the exploration of relationships – I'm going to catch up on something I wrote over 3 years ago, and continue where I left off. Read here for the history – http://thespirit.magickalmusings.com/journ…jan00/31100.htm In June … Read more …
Dating journal
Yesterday someone contacted me for a survey about online dating. I responded to their survey questions and gave a few thoughts about online dating, in relation to my own experiences in the past. Since then, I've been thinking about something … Read more …
21 June 2003
It's one of the great mysteries of life that I can stay awake all night here at work, but I can't stay awake all night at home. Why is that? I tried getting some sleep before coming to work, so … Read more …
Saying goodbye
Last night I said goodbye to Wakana. I came to realise that I couldn’t continue having her in my life when every time she comes online to chat to me, she tells me how much she loves me and misses … Read more …
The story of Michelle
I was just browsing parts of my journal from around the time that Darlene left me, and when I met Michelle and started to get real happy and excited about having her in my life. I've never talked in here … Read more …
14 February 2003
Traditionally, Valentine's Day (VD) has had no meaning for me. I seem to have been alone for most of them. Let's look back on the past 5 years, the length of time that this journal has been in existence: 1998 … Read more …
The Kid
You know how sometimes, something comes along that makes you just sit up and take notice of what's going on in your life, and suddenly you realise that it's lacking. You realise that you're looking for something, but you know … Read more …
Grief, and aliases
It must be hard to know that your son died in combat. It must be even harder to have it represented in a movie, with some actor playing out the death of your son. How would you deal with it? … Read more …